Arrhh lagi sebulan notisku disini, aishh banyak da yang aku fikirkan. Antaranya….. Freeeeedom! haha. Tak sabar tapi rasa bimbang pun ada. Camne nak teruskan hidup tanpa kerja? Aku bukan anak orang kaya untuk hidup senang lenang tanpa perlu kerja, enjoy joli sana sini. Ohh no! But so I think, aaaah rezeki ada di mana-mana. I will survive. Hehe. Thats the spirit kan, chayok!

Abang dan Kak ipar da berkali-kali call nak tolong adjustkan kerja. Hantar resume, resume, resume! Kerja yang bakal dicarikan, Government Post. Tapi aku…

Dalam hati masih ragu, inikah yang aku perlu? Hidup stabil dan selesa atau hidup terumbang ambing tapi hati senang dan puas? Manakah satu yang jadi pilihan? Apa beza aku kesana dan aku disini kalau semua percaturan hidupku telah ditentukan. Tapi memang bodohla kalau aku lepaskan semuanya. Tapi, tapi… Aku masih bertapi..

I may be a fool to turn down such a great once in a lifetime offer. But, I have my reason. Let me live my life, please give me a break for just once, to find myself, to find what I want in life, to do what I want. But what do I actually want? Tell me heart.

I may be a stupid to reject my oppurtunity, just to be independent, to feel the challenging hard life, to feel the pain, feel the pressure. Take the responsibility and face all the risk. They said, No pain No Gain. So be it. Huhu. My mind has spoken. Let me cry when I am in difficult time, let me smile when I achieve something. Let me take control and be in charge. For all and everything. For just this once.

Say goodbye to comfort life, welcome home pain and tears. For me to find me in me, with my own effort and way, that’s what I treasure the most.