Got nowhere to go..
My lucky 200 no sense post.haha. Yups its lunch time and i got no place to go. Have lunch in the pantry room without saying a word, back to workspace table without saying a word, watching people in and out, again without saying a word.
My humble smile here, so very sweet. Still no one see, i am so lost in my comfort zone. Again and again, all over again. It just a mere memory, a dejavu, have seen the same situation, not so long ago.
Help me out here peps! I wanna change so hard, be the friendly easygoing girl so fast. Still something bother me now and then just couldn’t figure out what and why.. Its sometimes so strange being me. People wanna hear me, i wanna be heard. Same way same herd. But blocked in between, by what nobody knows.
And today, i try to reach out.. Just don’t have the strength to raise up my hand high. I try to stand up.. Just my heels too weak fell when everyone’s waiting. And so i am lost again.
To build a state i am into it, to run a place i belong to, to make believe and faith to trust. I cannot see a way ahead. Sigh.
