Anastasia Ann

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We often make people believe that we are good, we are fine, we are okay when we are actually not.

Today I read something about Self believe. Yes, its true. Self believe. I admit that I have conflict in my mind where sometimes I feel like I am myself, but many times also I feel like I am someone else who is pretending to be myself. Its the illusion point where I lie myself by saying that I believe in myself, that I am me, just trying to be me and I am no one else but me. The truth is that not exactly what it is.

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From what I read, I found myself to be a great pretender, with the tendency to care more for what other will says than what I really want. I tend to keep quiet, to hide my real feeling, acting so cool even when everything is in chaos, argghh just to make sure others happy. Omg how terrible is that sound? Having this blog is my runaway, just to let them know in writing that this is what I am feeling now and make them listen to me right now. Yes I am a true fugitive.

I stop hoping to become someone great once upon a time ago. But Oh God, I wanna change that me so bad. I wanna be someone new, someone who can stand up for myself, for what I want, for what I need, for all the greatest thing in the world. I just wanna have fun and enjoy my short time on earth. Have life!

One day when its time for me to go, I do not want to leave with any regret, I want to be proud of me, of what I become, of what I make myself indulge into. I want to speak so loud to let them see the true wonderful colours in me, of my journey in life, how my so-called stupid choices lead to my success, and prove them all wrong when they go against what my small heart says. And they should have listen to me, have a little faith in me.

Looking forward for that time to come. ) Hey, I Move on ok!

P/s: I Just LOVE the nataliedee cartoon!